The Mirror of Erised shows the most desperate desire of a person's heart, a vision that has been known to drive men mad. "The happiest man on earth would be able to use the mirror like a normal mirror, that is, he would look into it and see himself exactly as he is."
I don't know what I would see if I looked into the mirror.
A strong independent man by my side, full of devotion and drive?
A future full of me helping people, helping drive the sadness from them or at least making it more manageable?
Me, walking in a beautiful new place, fully accepting the secret outlandish style hidden within me, surrounded in a cloak of my own self acceptance and love?
Would it be me, content wherever I am and whomever I'm with?
I have no idea.
I feel like I should know.
I want to strive toward something, because that's who I am.
I don't want to finish graduate school and realize that I'm still not truly happy.
Joseph Campbell said "We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." And I'm wondering...what do I shed? What dreams do I hold on to?
I had a thought today that leaving your friend and family is supposed to be hard, dreadfully deeply soul wrenchingly hard, because that's how we know what dreams are worth following. If we're willing to move away from everything and everyone to follow that dream, then it's pretty damn important.